This post is a response to several email's I received by viewers on the wait list, to release contents from my autobiography:

Betrayed Not Beaten (Volume 1, Chapter 12):

'...with The Rosary Beads clutched tight in my hands that were trembling with grief, tears falling down both cheeks and a strong temptation to rip the whole thing apart at opposite ends, I said to God, 'what are you doing to me, haven't I been loyal to you?' In my heart I heard, 'come save it a second time'. 

It made no sense to me at all, 'come save it a second time', 'what's that supposed to mean anyway and what's it got to do with losing my children', I thought? I asked again and got the same answer. I was frustrated and hurt and couldn't make any sense of it.  

I know that I am favored, because I had…